Swingaments

I'm extremely frustrated right now. And kind of have to vent I guess, so I guess that's one good thing about this blog lol. I've never had such terrible swings in my life. I don't even think these are natural and I feel like I'm on Perma-Tilt. I can't play without getting frustrated and generally this is very unlike me. Generally I don't play really bad on tilt or nothing, I don't do anything overly crazy though it's possible I do get a tad spewy but not to the point to make me a losing player in most cases. I'm just not sure where I stand anymore though, I thought I was doing well and was one of the better regs on the tables and now I just feel like a fish. I'm now on a $950 downswing in the $6 45's along with a 2,000 game breakeven stretch which I think some will say definately happens, but -$950 at $6's??? This is just way too fucked up. I mean you can't honestly tell me that's possible if even just 10% ROI is EV for me.

To top things off I had a few deep runs in some MTT's but couldn't run good enough to FT them. I busted 28th in the $7.50 turbo along with a 21st in a $2r and to make things just that much sweeter I FT bubbled the 4.40 turbo. That has not helped with the frustration I've been going through with my 45's. Anyways I'm not sure what I can do at the moment, especially considering my attitude towards poker right now is filled with so much negativity, it's not good for my game. I also have big issues with reviewing my game cause I just never find any big problems, especially when I'm frustrated like I am, and I think that's pretty standard. I guess I can only relax, or try to. Here's what swingaments look like:

Power Outages and Lazyness

Hey guys, it's been a little while yet again since I've really done any updates with what I've been up to lately, but to sum it up I dropped my $12 45's after my massive downswing, got my confidence back which I was very proud of myself for doing by the way, and crushed those $6's over a 3 day period bringing myself pretty much back to breakeven after losing $900 in $12's and $600+ in $6's. It was a very satisfying 3 days for me. Now what was not so satisfying was the power outage we experienced her on Sunday. It lasted from late Saturday night until 4:30pm the next day leaving me with a ZERO volume day lol. And then to top it off I decided to be really lazy and take the day off today =p so I definately didnt' make the 10k VPP's I wanted to this month by today but I did manage almost 7,000 bringing me to just over 18,000VPP's so far this year. Almost 1/5th of the way to Supernova =D This will be a very exciting journey I'm sure of it, and I can't wait to get back to the $12's and take another shot. I will be doing that as soon as I feel comfortable with my roll and the variance.

I'm gonna have to start adding more 45's with my $6's very soon though because me and yeeluvspizza on PokerStars got a little prop bet going for $10 to see who can make it to 5,000 45 Turbo games played starting back on Thursday, February 10th at 8am PST. At the moment he's just over 1k and I'm just under 600 so I better pick up the pace cause I don't like losing! ;)

Downswings and Bad Dreams

45 Turbos... 180 Turbos?... MTT Turbos?... Turbos-Turbos-Turbos...... It's all I dream about and it's killin me. I need to find peace with poker once again. After this dreadful week it's gonna be tough though. One minute your in first on the leaderboard and the next minute your down in the gutter wonderin how you got there. I think it's safe to say that I have mostly been running really bad lately, especially in the $12's which I started playing a few days ago and am actually going to discontinue playing until I rebuild my confidence and my bankroll. I'll be back at the $6's for at least the rest of this week after having my $12's lose almost $900 in the first 350+ games I've played there and my $6's on a 70 BI downswing at the same time.

So anyways I'm just gonna start getting up earlier and grinding earlier. I want to get a lot of games in for the rest of this week and hopefully that will pick me back up on my feet and also complete those 10k VPP's I want in first two weeks of February. It's gonna be close... Time to get some sleep though... Goodnight.