To Grind or Not to Grind?

Well, the rest of last week went okay.. I didn't lose any money playing the 45 turbos that's for sure. I didn't play much of them either though. I've pretty much just been layin back and enjoying myself, playing donkaments and getting a chance to forget about grinding like a maniac. I mean it's one thing to grind and put a lot of volume, and it's another to grind and put a lot of volume in as if it's your 'job'. Personally, it's very important for me not to see 45 turbos as if they are my work and something I have to do everyday or I can't live y'know. The minute someone tries to force something to happen like that it never seems to turn out well, it can be very stressful when you put that kind of pressure on yourself. You have to enjoy what you do and go from there. It's no different then working a real job within society that you don't like. There is pressure in that as well along with the stress. Been there done that..

Anyways I'm not sure if I'm gonna make platinum again this month unless I decide to start throwing in $12 45's for the rest of the month. I've got like 4k VPP's for this month so far which means I need almost 440 VPP's a day to make it, which I can do with just 3's and 6's but that is 200+ games a day and that gets very exhausting trust me. I'm pretty tempted to start playing the 12's anyhow. I was planning on waiting until I have at least 200 BI's but I'm not really too worried about being only 50 short considering I can play with stoploss well enough. Besides I'll probably never make it to 200 BI's if I keep cashing out money like I am lol. I just grinded 14.5k VPP's playing the 6man 280fpp hyper-turbos sats to the 1/4 mil. They have been very easy for me to beat, I have made lots of money off of those games and enjoy them, so much for saving my FPP's though, oh well. I had to cash out $300 tonight for a couple of things I won't even bother talking about right now in this blog, but I will say it was important enough for me to do it. I really do hate cashing out though lol.